I am writing this the day after the horrible mass shootings in New Zealand in which so many innocent, decent people lost their lives. I attended a vigil organized by the UCLA Muslim Student Association, where as part of a guided discussion we were asked to share our feelings in response to this news. I am writing this post because I am still thinking through my feelings, and am hoping that putting words on paper will help me organize my currently scattered thoughts.
Lost World by Kalyanee Mam for Emergence Magazine.
As Singapore dredges sand out from beneath Cambodia’s mangrove forests, an ecosystem, a communal way of life, and one woman’s relationship to her beloved home are faced with the threat of erasure.
The story goes that in 1978 mathematician John McKay made an observation both completely trivial and oddly specific: 196,884 = 196,883 + 1. The first number, 196,884, had come up as a coefficient in an important polynomial called the j-invariant, and 196,883 came up in relation to an enormous mathematical object called the Monster group. Many people probably would have shrugged and moved along, but the observations intrigued some mathematicians, who decided to take a closer look. They uncovered connections between two seemingly unrelated subjects: number theory and the symmetries of the Monster group.
In the winter [in Patna], cold air and pollution arising from a mix of wood-burning cook stoves, smoldering garbage, brick kilns, construction, and road dust get trapped close to the ground. Emissions accrue into a smothering blanket that spreads out across the region
I just finished reading Jose Saramago’s “Small Memories”. I have not read any of Saramago’s work before, but reading this memoir left me wanting to read more. It is a delightful, innocent little book- reflections on an assortment of memories from Saramago’s childhood. I was also charmed by the writing style. Saramago seems to love writing long, complicated sentences, with many parenthetical asides. He writes like he thinks. I heard in Steven Pinker’s lecture on Style and Writing (for I have not read the book myself) that Darwin wrote in Descent of Man that “man has an instinctive tendency to speak, as we see in the babble of our young children; whilst no child has an instinctive tendency to brew, bake, or write”; well, Saramago seems to defy this by instinctively merging writing and thinking (but maybe it was not instinctive for him; maybe he labored over all of his sentences to achieve his desired style). It worked for him:
Some of the more significant writing of the past thirty years has taken delight in the long, lawless sentence—think of Thomas Bernhard, Bohumil Hrabal, W. G. Sebald, Roberto Bolaño—but no one sounds quite like Saramago. He has an ability to seem wise and ignorant at the same time, as if he were not really narrating the stories he narrates. Often, he uses what could be called unidentified free indirect style—his fictions sound as if they were being told not by an author but by, say, a group of wise and somewhat garrulous old men, sitting down by the harbor in Lisbon, having a smoke, one of whom is the writer himself. From James Wood’s review of Death Takes a Holiday
This book felt especially dear to me because in it I found two of my dad’s boarding passes from 2010. Evidently he flew from Hyderabad to Kolkota and back in January 2010. I would have been in high school then. Who knew that nine years after this flight (that I was not even on), I would be holding onto it as one of my own small memories.
I am somewhat disappointed in myself for having overwhelmingly read male authors recently (Murakami, Manu Pillai, EO Wilson, Sasha Issenberg, maybe others), and want to rectify this bias. I could start with Joan Didion, who dad frequently read, Toni Morrison, Louise Erdrich, Yaa Gyasi, or Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie.